Is this the idea you have of God? Is He the Father that you always tried to please, but just was never good enough for? The Bible tells us about a VERY different God than most of us have in our heads (and in our hearts, too).
This book, The Good and Beautiful God, is AMAZING. It takes a look at these narratives that we have and live by, and looks at the truth. I'm just over halfway through, and yet, with each chapter, am blown away by the wonderful truths that are RIGHT THERE for us to know!
So far, my favorite chapter in this book is about God being GENEROUS. It's about Him giving us GRACE, FREELY and out of abundance. It's about Him giving the same pay to those who worked 1 hour as well as to those who worked 12, not because the ones who worked 1 worked harder, but because He gives not based on the merit of EARNING. It's about Him being the Father who eagerly awaits the return of a son who has basically wished Him dead, and showers him with forgiveness and welcomes him right back into His life.
The lessons we've learned from other people (who have hurt us) about our worth, and about the way God views us are not the TRUTH. Take some time to look at the truth (this book is a good resource to get you started)---and be ready to start letting your life be transformed.